Lea Michele Talks Life After Death In Glamour UK: “I Was Under A Cory Monteith Spell!”
Lea Michele has been touched by an angel…and his name is Cory Monteith. The 27-year-old actress and singer covers the April 2014 issue of Glamour UK and opens up about dealing with the tragic death of her boyfriend and Glee co-star.
“Every day when I go running, I feel like he’s pushing me to run harder,” she says. “I’m just so glad we’re in a new year. I feel physically and emotionally very strong. You don’t know how strong you are until you have to be. I lost my grandfather a couple of years ago and I always feel that he’s watching over me. I feel the exact same way about Cory. Every day when I go running, I feel like he’s pushing me to run harder.”
Michele has come a long way from the days following Monteith’s death last summer, which resulted from a drug overdose.
“I immediately started to try and process everything,” she tells the British magazine. “I didn’t drown myself in anything toxic. At the start, it’s hard because you’re so physically and mentally shocked and damaged, but after awhile you get tired of physically feeling so horrendous, so I started doing yoga, which really helped. Then gradually your mind catches up with your body. Now I feel a little bit more back together and I have this blank canvas in front of me, which is what my life can be. There’s something sad about that but also something good, because I will take that blank canvas and make something beautiful out of it.”
Life wasn’t always a blank canvas for Michele, who once had a pretty picture of what the future held for her.
“I feel like I was given the best part of Cory and I’m thankful for that,” Lea explains. “We talked about a lot of things. We talked about children and what we would look like when we grew old and who would be fat and how we would stay thin. We talked about where we wanted to go and what we wanted to do. We were done. We were it. When you’re at that place in your life with someone, you talk about everything.”
And while Lea still dreams of having children one day, she’s not ready to date just yet.
“I’ve only ever had serious relationships so it’s an adjustment putting myself back into a place of being alone,” says Michele. “And I was under a Cory Monteith spell…it’ll take time to readjust my mind and I’m really not wanting to do that right now. I feel like it’s so important to make sure that I’m 100% OK before I can get into a relationship. But people have to understand that I can’t be alone forever. Cory wouldn’t want that.”
Read the full interview when Glamour UK hits newsstands today.