Ronda Rousey Admits She Wanted To “Kill Herself” After She Lost Her Fight With Holly Holm
When Ronda Rousey lost to Holly Holm at UFC 193, it shocked a lot of people. Up until that point, Rousey hadn’t been tested inside of the Octagon, let alone suffered a defeat, so when Holm knocked her out rather easily in the second round of their fight, people didn’t know how to react to it. Rousey didn’t know what to do, either. During an interview with Ellen DeGeneres this week, Rousey admitted that she was stunned after the fight and that she didn’t know what she was going to do after it was over. She felt so bad about how things had gone that she actually sat down in a medical room and thought about taking her own life.
“I was sitting in the corner and was like, ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’” she told Ellen. “Literally sitting there thinking about killing myself. In that exact second, I’m like, ‘I’m nothing. What do I do anymore? No one gives a [expletive] about me anymore without this.”
Fortunately, the moment passed within a matter of just minutes. While Rousey was devastated about the loss—and while it’s pretty clear that she’s still not over it—she was joined by her boyfriend Travis Browne in the medical room, and he helped her begin the process of healing. She told Ellen that she probably couldn’t have gotten through things without him and that she thought, “I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive,” after she contemplated suicide.
The entire clip, which we have provided below, is worth a watch because it highlights just how much Rousey had invested into her UFC career and how much it hurt for her to lose. To the rest of us, Rousey’s loss was a shocking sports moment that we’ll never forget, but for her, it became a huge obstacle that she had to overcome and will have to continue to overcome well into the future. How she reacts to the loss will ultimately determine what kind of legacy she leaves when she finishes fighting for the UFC.
Watch Rousey’s interview with Ellen here: